Monday, January 10, 2011


Today I'm reading Ann's blog about breathing. I'm remembering a phone conversation with a friend last night when we agreed that we try hard and make resolutions and what we really want is more of God and not of our own efforts. I'm feeling the loneliness of my bed tonight. In it all, I want to breathe; to live; to savor these fleeting moments and lay down something lasting with these children.

#391 Unexpectedly, a neighbor friend called today. Could she come over for 30 minutes this afternoon so I could take a walk by myself?

#392 A Christmas card came with $100 gift that completely surprised us. We needed it to make it until payday.

#393 Heat waving out of the radiators.

#394 L (5)- delight over time to herself with friends. The spark of joy as she observed her first dance class.

#395 Three boys "pants fighting" together. Even T (3) would swing the pants by the waist and try to knock his big brothers down. This is what boys do.

#396 Paycheck. Wonderful, dependable company I work for with wonderful leaders in integrity and character. I'm grateful for NSA.

#397 Two hours of sleep. It's the most I've had in a few weeks, but it's a lot better than 15 minutes that I've had a few nights.

#398 Clear schedule; staying in doesn't feel restrictive.

#399 Freshly ground wheat.

#400 Sharing life with my sister, seeing her as a mother, finding new connections.

1 comment:

Anne said...

Hi Calli, I just wanted to pop in and say hi and tell you that I'm going to pray for your family today. I know you aren't looking for sympathy, but it's clear that life is really hard for you guys right now. I'm sorry for that, but know that I've been encouraged by your writing and how you are consistenly seeking God and desiring His will for you in this time.