It's that time of night. Essentially I am worth very little after dinner, and once the kids are in bed I am also ready to retire. (I'm considering that I feel ready even though there is an abundance of things that I could and should be working on. Thank yous? Laundry? Cleaning up? Making phone calls?)
As I look at the blog I really think that I'm not quite being honest with you all. Unintentionally, of course. I simply tend to blog when I have slept, or when I have a free minute, or when I have a positive outlook or a great quiet time. I want that to be me all the time.
I covet your prayers! I have absolutely no idea what the Lord is doing right now. I don't need to know. Things with the house are dragging on. The contractor says it will be another two weeks before the carpet, tile, and cabinets are finished. I'm weary of having things disordered, having someone else in my house, and feeling impatient and ready to just move ON! I've had mastitis (or its symptoms) three times. Nursing is still not easy. . .
That's it. i'm going to stop there. Braden needs his computer and I do not want to wax complaintantly. Just so you know that having four children under the age of 5 is difficult and challenging as well as rewarding and sweet. Daily I am beseeching my God for mercy, strength, and grace. We are so needy and so aware of it. Goodnight.
2 comments:
Oh Calli I wish I could give you a hug. You sound very tired and worn. Remember that it will get easier. I can underestand with wanting to move on. Although I am not having the house issues that you are I am wanting to get everything back in order. I had to let alot of stuff go with this pregnancy and now I am ready to jump in and get things right. The only problem is that I am not ready physically and I now have four littles to take care of. My time is not my own.
Thank you for being so transparent. I think many times we blog about what is working and our accomplishments because we don't want to sound as if we are complaining. It's good to be real. You are not complaining, just struggling. I will continue to pray for you.
Do you have anyone that you can ask for help? It sounds like you could use more rest. I know that it is so hard to get the nursing thing down when we are busy with the others. Baby #3 was the worst for me. I don't know what your specific problem is (besides the mastitis) but what I finally did was buy a sheild. Until I used the sheild I would cry when it was time for me to nurse. I had gotten to the point where I could only nurse on one side for a day and then on the other side the next day. I would pump the side that I wasn't nursing on because pumping was less painful.
Try not to expect so much from this season in your life. keep things simple. I will remember you in prayer.
p.s. you don't have to post this if you don't want to because of the nursing info. I don't mind either way. I just don't know what other people want to share on their blogs.
Life with Littles...
Just to let you the Littles...DO, in fact, grow up! We had three under 5 years old.. Now we have 3 over 25!
Sherri and I are ready a Psalm a day... you have enemies like David did. God will rescue - in his own time.
Thanks for your honesty.
Uncle Jim
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